INNOCENCE VS DECEPTION PART 3

As a young girl I was a shy and timid person. I started menstrating later then most girls my age, a late bloomer with everything. I was always teased because of the way I looked, never retaliating, just walk away holding back the tears.
I felt such an inner ugliness and worthlessness as a young child. I did have many friends however, but at times it would be them teasing me as well as my siblings. They knew they could because they were right. It wasn't the kind of obsene teasing that may happen now. These were names targeted at the way I looked that couldn't be changed. Although I was happy on the outside, my inner soul ached with lonliness.

Adults would always say how sweet I was, they saw my inner beauty come out. They would tell me my eyes were angelic and had such a sweetness, they would tell me there was something special about me, something that just shone through.

Those angelic eyes started to change. My weakness for insecurities as a teenager was strong, as I said those words. The words that changed the way people saw me both inside and out. Those words I thought at such a young age were only a wish.

My mother always said "watch what you wish for". I now think we should tell people to watch how you wish for; as your wish should always be your faith.

At this age, it's easy for the demons to overpower as we lack the experience to know the difference. only the person being controlled by these demons can overcome them, but they must try to understand it, trust thier faith in God and fight back.

I would never believe we are put here to kill people, including ourselves, we may think are demons, that would be the demon themselves winning your soul by decieving you that murder is Gods will. My belief is it is not the human encasing that is the demon ,as God gave us our body as a gift and to respect ours and everyone elses. It's the demon's inside we must fight that we allow in.

We can defeat these demons, only if we accept the consequences, and always believe the faith that God will carry you and make your soul stronger, it is then we have won our battle for our soul.

They are always out there lerking, waiting to get back in through those weaknesses and fears we hold. It is used against us when the demon strikes. It is then that your destiny is set and the fight for your soul begins.

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