THE FIRST MEETING PART 6

The old saying "three strikes and your out" doesn't seem to far from life's....


The deal I made many years ago to find eternal love was not the first deal I made in my lifetime. I had forgot over the years until the other night when I regressed back. This happened during sex with Damian and in the past few years I've been able to bring out the demon himself during our sex, feeling him, hearing him. I was acceptable to it, but that was part of the manipulation process, for me to have him expose himself during his most vulnerable moments.

The first deal I remember making was as a young awkward teenager, always been teased and feeling inadequate and lonely. I made a deal to make me beautiful to have men always wanting me. After that day I started developing as I was a late bloomer which added to my awkwardness and insecurities. I began developing many curves, a perfect behind and legs. My freckles I had that surrounded my face started to fade and I had an enormous amount of sex appeal. It was shortly after that I had men craving me, always wanting me, everyman I came across would want so bad to have sex with me, even if I hadn't spoke to them, strangers would come up to me telling me how beautiful I was and there was something about me besides my beauty that drew them to me.

I was a seductress.

I would never be brazen; I did and have always kept a very innocent look to me. I would be shy but aggressive with my eyes at the same time. I was coy with men and always told my smile would make them melt. There were men I had to turn down as I could tell the lust they felt for me would turn into compulsion, if I spotted that I would not pursue a sexual encounter. Many times, however, those men would become my protectors, wherever I went, making sure no harm came to me whether I was in my drunken stupors or out seeking my desires.

I would never keep the same friends, as I was a drifter and moved around from city to city and job to job very frequently at a very early age.

Shortly before making the second deal to find eternal love, I found a job that was perfect for me, away from the industry of night time work, alcohol surrounding me which made it easy for me to pick up men. It was a job that could have been a career and a very properous one. I was to make excellent money with a great job title and right up my area to use my creative thinking. I know if following that path I would have had the career I was destined to have. I was so excited about this new job. The day before I was to start was when I struck a deal.

As I woke up the morning I was to start my first day, something felt different, an uncertainty about it. I wasn't nervous about it being a new job since I would switch jobs every few months, but I wrote it off to that anyway and got dressed. I hopped on the bus and arrived a half hour early to work. I sat in a coffee shop next door, just sitting there drinking my coffee and having this overwhelming feeling to go home, this isn't where I'm supposed to be. I pulled out some change went to the payphone and called my soon to be employer.

I don't know what changed my mind but when I told my employer I was not be accepting this position and thanked them for the opportunity he tried to pursway me as he felt I was perfect for this job and to please reconsider. A part of me wanted to but this force of telling me to go home was overpowering.

As I came through the door of my house my mother was home. She questioned why I wasn't at work and I told her I decided not to take the job. She was very angry and told me I would never find another job like that and I ruined my opportunity for a better life. I told her I would find a job that day which she didn't believe I could. I grabbed the paper and as I opened it to the classifieds a huge ad stuck in my face. It was a job in walking distance of where I lived. I didn't hold much experience in that industry or never did that particular job before but I phoned and got an interview for that day.

My mother told me they would never hire me, that I was crazy. As I walked into the office of the interviewer he looked at me and let out a huge grin. I could tell by his reception I had a good chance of employment. He spent a half hour talking with me, going over my previous jobs and then said you're hired. I was to start the following day.

The next day I went in and was introduced to my supervisor. He then started taking me around to meet the employees one by one. There are two that day that stuck out in my mind that I met. The first one was a woman, there was something as soon as we met that caused tension between us. I couldn't figure this out as I was a very likeable person and I didn't find to much tension with people around me. I knew her and I, right from that meeting, were going to run into problems with each other. I shook it off and continued to meet the rest of the employees.

One of the last people I met was a man named Damian.As soon as I looked into his eyes and shook his hand I was hooked to him. There was something about him I couldn't explain that drew such power to him and I felt myself melt. He shook my hand and at that instance I had a vision, a vision so quick but detailed. The vision was of the two of us being married. I had never experienced a vision like that before, I fell in love with him right there without even knowing him or who he was, just his name and job title.

With all the men in my life I had come across I never met one that I was so drawn to, I would think of him all the time. I did find out the day I started he was married and although I didn't have many morals regarding my body and behaviours I would never pursue a married man at that point in my life, but I couldn't get my mind or eyes off him. If I had to speak to him at work my mind would become mush and stupid things would come out of my mouth. I was smitten.

The other problem was the woman who I met earlier, was actually the woman Damian was having an affair with. It didn't matter to either of them he was married and that she had been living with her boyfriend for many years.

A couple of months after working, Damian got separated from his wife. I would have pursued him then but I heard of the hooks his girlfriend had in him, they were inseparable.. Even with this I couldn't keep my mind off him, it was unlike anything I experienced in my life. He would just look at me and I would gaze at him, his eyes were dark and lustful. He was mysterious never saying much. When I was around him I would quiver and stumble my words. I knew somewhere deep inside of me that I would be his forever even though it seemed unlikely to anyone at that time, even to me.

PART 7 ANOTHER TURN OF DESTINY.....

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