ANOTHER TURN OF DESTINY PART 7

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"It is in our dreams, we are guided".

It was a new job I started where I met Damian and as I shook his hand I saw a vision of us spending our life together. At that moment I fell in love with him like no other, but he was married and so I stayed away. I went on with my daily life but this time I felt something else stirring inside of me. I started to change, little by little over the course of the months. I ended up cheating on my long term relationship I was in , with someone at work.

I don't ever really know what attracted me to this person, my eyes were on Damian, but he felt so out of reach. I just knew I needed to seperate myself from my past.

After a few months working, I found out he was seperating from his wife, I thought this was my chance but another woman at work had her hooks into him. The same woman that I had an uneasy feeling about when we first met. I continued to admire him from afar wanting and thinking of him, but still to nervous to approach him, something I had never been afraid of before. There was something completely different about this man. He was so handsome, rugged looking, very manly. Not a man that would look like someone groomed for G.Q. but a small town kind of guy.

Gorgeous eyes that was filled with lust everytime you would look at him and lips every woman wanted to kiss. I would hear many women around me talk about him; craving to be with him, whether they were married or not.

I wouldn't say much as I didn't want anyone to know how I felt, I knew they would tell him. Up until this point I never seemed to care if other women around me knew I liked someone, and if I liked someone, I wasn't shy. My female co workers, although liked me, seemed to always be watching me. I knew they were protecting his girlfriend they worked with for so long.

They saw how I would look at him but because I was dating someone at work and was very subtle when I did approached him, they could never gossip about what I felt . But they knew; they saw the couple of times I did, my brain became mush.

As he was standing beside me one day and I could smell his cologne, smelling so good, drawing me closer and closer to him. I could barely control what was going on inside of me. I thought for sure he knew and saw me quiver. I asked him what cologne he was wearing and when he told me and asked why, I was so stupid to say I wanted to buy some for my boyfriend. He gave me a grin I'll never forget and walked away. My heart stopped, I never in my life had been so stumped and so shy to a man. I kicked myself after that day for saying that.

My office was surrounded by windows and looked over one part of the business. Just out of my site was Damian's office. I would only see him if he was walking around in my view or if I had to leave my office. We barely spoke, I was still to afraid to approach him, although somewhere I knew he was watching, I felt a presense upon me.

Occassionally he would come up to the office, and just sit looking out the window . I would sit at my desk afraid to look at him for to long. I would see him wanting me to look up into his eyes, I would look up at him, smiling, my heart pounding, but could never hold contact. As he would leave he would gaze into my eyes, I felt an energy I couldn't explain. I would hold my breath until he left, as my breath came back, I would let out a moan.

At that time the economy started slowing down and four months after getting the job I was laid off. My boss told me if any other openings come up I will be called but he didn't know when.

I was so depressed, I left that job thinking I would never see Damian again. I felt lost. I made plans to move to another city farther away then I had ever been from home. I spent a month planning this move, going ahead of time and setting myself up with a job and an apartment. I went back home and started packing for my new life.

The day I was leaving I sat in my room looking around at all my packed luggage. I sat on the floor and couldn't shake the feeling that this was not where I was supposed to be going. I had an overwhelming feeling to stay where I was and not leave.

My father opened my bedroom door to tell me it was time to go, as I held the bus ticket in my hand. I looked at my father and told him I didn't want to go, I had changed my mind. They were used to this with me, as I would many times switch directions in my life without rythme or reason. My parents were upset, they were afraid that I had no direction and now again no job in my life, but I knew I had to stay. A feeling just as strong as it was when I turned down my dream job.

As I laid in bed that night, drifting into sleep, I had a dream. I dreamt of a stranger looking over my shoulder. I felt afraid to turn around yet I couldn't stop myself. As I turned I saw glowing eyes, I heard a whisper of my name and at that moment I knew who it was, quivering, throughout my body.

At that moment I awoke to the phone ringing, it was my boss. I felt I was dreaming again when he told me there was another job opening and wanted to know if I was interested. My eyes opened wide as I jumped out of bed realizing it wasn't a dream, knowing I was going to see Damian again.













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